I thought it was about time to tell you about my testimony. So here it goes....
I have wonderful parents, grandparents and siblings. I had the privilege to grow up in a strong Christian home. When I was little my family would go to this Christian camp every summer. At night, there was an adult worship session and a kids corner. Every night at the kids corner for five days in a row I asked Jesus to be in my heart. I REALLY wanted to make sure God was sticking with me. After that nothing really changed, I mean I was 4 and living the 4-year-old life. I didn't really have a relationship with God. I prayed with my parents every night, but that was about it. I also went to a Christian school and had bible classes and learned about God almost every day. I loved learning about God! When I hit 4th grade my parents decided to have Kayla, Ben and I move to Hershey Public school. Little did I know that everyone at Hershey wasn't a Christian. I asked my fourth-grade friend if she was a Christian and she said no. I blatantly told her she was going to hell, but then we went on and played. I TRULY thought everyone was a Christian. Having that experience was a wake-up call for sure.
When 6th grade hit I was not prepared for the torture that was middle school. I was bullied and made fun of a lot in 6th grade. I was made fun of for basically being me. Being bullied was a hard hit for me. I often thought to myself, "God, why are you allowing this to happen to me? I'm your child." In thinking that, my relationship with God was almost nothing. I was doing what I wanted, I was allowing people to torture me with their hurtful words. I was allowing my relationship with Christ to become almost nothing.
My relationship with God seemed to be almost nothing until sophomore year of high school. Sophomore year was a year of growth for me not only growth with self-worth and self-confidence but, growth in my relationship with Christ. I started going to Young Life and boy did that change a lot. Young Life met every Monday. We would sing songs, bowl turkeys and talk about God. I got to know many awesome people through Young Life. I had two leaders who walked with me to regain my relationship with Christ. They invested so much time in me and I grew because of Young Life and my awesome leaders.
Then, this year happened. This year threw me off guard. I got distracted. I decided that something else was more important in my life than God was. That decision was evident. I was making decisions that did not reflex what a Godly woman was to be implementing. God was the farthest thing that I wanted because God would have drawn me away from the something that I wanted. I was not willing to give that something up for God. I relied on that something for confidence and self- worth. For guidance and "truth." In the end, that something did not satisfy me. I was lost and alone after that something left. The depth of my loneliness was at a new extreme. Again, like in 6th grade, I didn't want anything to do with God because I thought, "God, why are you allowing this to happen to me." But, this time, I knew exactly why God had allowed this to happen to me. God wanted me to see what I gave up. I needed God and I didn't realize how much I needed him. God made me feel pain to be able to understand what His joy would feel like. God showed me what loneliness feels like to make me understand that with him I will never feel lonely. God showed me who I was after this something had torn me apart. God has shown me how strong I am with him. I also think God used this situation to show me that he wants me to do missions. I want to build a relationship with God that will NEVER be torn down again. God wants this missions trip for my growth. And I'm so passionate about the mission trip already! I cannot wait for God to stretch my faith and I can't wait for this new chapter in my life.
Deuteronomy 31:8 The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”
Thanks for reading my testimony! Talk to you next week!
Lauren Moore
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